Lonestar....

Man, no post long time eh.
I guess thats probably because I have had bugger all going on.
My dad came for a brief visit, as usual. Just to help out with my grandmas house, they are giving it a bit of a makeover.
Although in total, he would of spent maybe...... 2 hours working, (hiring people)
He took us kids out to Lonestar for dinner the other night, I have to say I would give the whole experience. a 6/10.
We got sat at a table right next to the stairs, I was practically in the stairway but my brother swapped with me because I was so uncomfortable. Then there was some guy having his 18th over in the table next to us. They were popping bloody party poppers all bloody night.
The food was good, I think I probably should of ordered something different, basically what I got, was steak, salad and potato wedges... It was really nice, but I would of loved it just as much if my mum had made me some. Then we got given the wrong dessert, which was a f-up on the chefs side, I didnt mind so much because I didnt realise chocolate mousse was available and would of ordered that if I knew, but my poor bro and sister werent too keen.

Anyway, so its sunday and its one of those sunny one minute, pissing down the next.
I best be off.. I promised hunter I would go outside and take some photos with her :)

LADY GAGA THE FAME

LADY GAGA THE FAME
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I am addicted to this girls music! Today I heard "Poker Face" for the first time and fell in love, I must have listened to it at least 20 times already.
Of course "Just Dance" is brilliant, I had it on replay on my ipod for like.. 6 hours or something crazy like that.

I hate Wednesdays, maybe its because there is nothing to do on a wednesday or maybe its because of tomorrows impending doom (looking after isla)
I kind of doubt that because I wake up on thursday morning and go, thank god wednesday is over!

I dont know why it depresses me so much but every Wednesday morning I struggle to even get out of bed.

Me and a mountain of unwashed dishes!

So, I'm Kate, I have a pretty nasty case of social phobia, which is a bummer. If you havent noticed already, I have no life, but am in search of one! Basically for the last 18 months or so I have done nothing but sit on my ass and surf the net, and sleep, and eat and thats pretty much it.
But that has to change, I dont want it to, It has to.

So my social phobia was/is pretty bad. I can and have gone periods of months without leaving my house, and when I did it was only to the local shop to get a can of coke. Which if you ask me is pretty pathetic.

Since the end of august, I have been looking after my cousin isla for 2 days a week. I did enjoy it for about.. 4 days in total, but now she is getting into terrible twos or something, maybe she just hates me? I dont know but whatever it is, its causing her to be a little monster to me!

However tonight, I think I made a huge step in getting this life I want so badly, I went for a job trial,for a couple of hours at a restaurant down the road. God it was hard, I guess thats what happens when you sit on your fat ass for 2yrs then try to do 4 hours of dishwashing!
There was a really sweet girl there though, and I felt so bad because I was so quiet and I realised I must of had a really fowl look on my face because I was so nervous. I doubt they will ask me back, secretly I hope they dont. Because I think I need more practise at washing so many dishes! There was a freaking mountain of unwashed crap and I was so humiliated!
I am such a dick!

Well if you read this, sorry! Bit of a ramble! ha!

Lets see what happens,
essentially this will be the ramblings of a teen girl with social anxiety.... trying to get a life!